It's just so easy to want to give up sometimes. To succumb to the appathy and self pity until it hollows you out, leaving only an empty shell in its wake. As a society, we become more selfish and self absorbed every day. It blows my mind how some people can float through life without a conscience. How they can hurt people so deeply and not feel remorse, not feel anything at all really, because they weren't directly affected.
Have we become so jaded that the only way to feel good about ourselves is to make everyone around us as miserable as we are? Or is it out of self preservation? You know, burn them before they burn us? Or is something more malicious behind our actions? All I know is that we are losing our ability to be empathetic, and , along with that, our humanity all together.
Personally, I'd like to know when I became so nihilistic. Letting things go has always been hard for me. I'm a pack rat when it comes to emotional baggage. But its difficult to let wounds heal when they're not given a chance to. When all the mistakes and pain of your recent and distant past are constantly in your face, the wounds stay open. They constantly bleed. How do you find hope in a broken world? I don't know. I guess that's what we created religion for.
Do you ever feel like you're a prisoner in your own head? Sometimes, I'd like to live just one day as someone else. I want to know about how their thought process works. Am I alone with all these notions? Do other people think the same way I do? On some level they have to. I just find it difficult to believe that we're as unique and special as we delude ourselves into believing.
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